Weekends are tough

Here's the thing: during the week I understand that there is just a lot that is out of my control.  However, no matter what happens regarding the classes, work stuffs, etc, I know the shape that my week will take.  Then comes the weekend.  In the before times... BC... before Corona, I could go to Seoul on the weekend and wander around, get some food, have some fun, maybe meet people, maybe have a date, basically there were options for my weekends.  Now with the Revenge of the 'Rona going on, I feel like my best bet will be to stay home.  The thing is, my home is lonely.  I have books, I have Netflix, I have food, I won't be bored, but I will be alone.  I usually cherish my solitude, but I'm thinking that this may be one of those too-much-of-a-good-thing scenarios.  So what are my options?  Get back on Bumble for the distraction it offers and hope for some kind of connection?  Hang out with my friends in relationships and solidify my status of third wheel?  Realize that I'm just feeling lonely and hormonal, so plan a weekend of pampering myself to help myself feel better?  You know what I'd love to do?  I'd love to get in my car and just drive around while listening to music for a while.  Roll the windows down, turn the radio up, and work through all my emotional crap.  God I miss that.

Back in TX when I felt like this I could go and spend the weekend with a friend.  With all that's going on at the moment, my job doesn't want me to leave Dongtan... so... yeah... guess no Busan trip in the future.  I wonder if the Namhae trip will be cancelled.  Just like that, we are plunged back into the sea of uncertainty after being offered a glimpse of life as 'normal.'  No wonder I'm super bummed right now.  I've found myself on Amazon way too much looking at sundresses (no worries, the shipping is more than the dress in most cases), and the only reason I haven't ordered more from Holy Clothing is that I'm still waiting on the final pieces of my last order (don't get me started), so I'll go to the grocery store and call that my retail therapy.  I think I'll make nachos on Saturday... maybe make a taco salad... EAT ALL THE THINGS!

So yeah, I'm super bummed right now, friends.  It's partly hormonal, partly being lonely, and partly being homesick.

Now that the weekend has arrived, it's ok.  I got up this AM and had a cold brew while waiting for my kettle to boil so that I can actually make some hot coffee.  I started a load of laundry, and I'm thinking of going to a coffee shop with my journal later to be around others.  I may also take a blanket to the laundromat since I spilled garlic butter on it last week (I know, I know, but when you don't have a table/chairs, you eat sitting on your bed).  I'll probably read today, maybe watch something... either way I'm again spending the day with me.  It's ok, I mean, I like me.  I just miss other people that I also like, you know?  Eh, to ensure you know that I'm ok, I decided to turn my Saturday into a picture project.  So here is my Saturday thru the lens... of the phone :)

 Snuggling with Soju.

The Elixir of LIFE!!!

 Doing laundry...

 My drying rack...

The full drying rack.

 I get to play artist, I borrow a beret from S.

 Look at my art!  Thanks, S.

 Before...

 After!  How cute!

 I wasn't done painting yet, so I painted my nails.

 Not sparkly enough...

Better.

 My date for the day...

 or this one... spoiler alert... it ended up being the first one.

I am the BEST at snacking.  For those who are wondering, I also ended up having the leftover pizza from last night, some cookies, some wine, and more snackies.  Hehehe.

So all in all, it was a good day.  I got stuff done, I was lazy, and now I have a cute little painting of BOSS!