The waiting is the hardest part

 So I had some time to myself this weekend, and my brain is being MEAN to me!  I've realized that I like being at work from open to close because there's so much stuff going on, I can't fixate on THE EMAIL.  That's right, it's become THE EMAIL in my head because so much seems to be riding on this.  Is that right?  Not really.  If the State Dept decides that my essays, personal narratives, and work history are not what they are looking for - then that's it.  Door closed.  Move on to plan B.  What is plan B you ask?  Well... I'm working on it.  It involves another job, and possibly a move.  I've done all that I can control, waiting to be judged and notified is HORRIBLE.

In other news, it's hard moving home after being away for 20 years.  A lot of my old friends have moved on and we're also stuck with the "our lives have diverged so much, do we have ANYTHING in common anymore?"  I've never been good at reaching out to people, though I did set up a date at the Depot with a friend from HS.  It's funny listening to her - we may have gone to the same school, but we had VASTLY different experiences.  I would have loved to have gone 'carping' (some straight-up COUNTRY stuff right there).  Apparently neither of us were invited to the after-graduation party.  LOL - no big loss there, I feel.  I think I've just been missing my TX friends... I have a phone date with Jess today, which should help.  Knowing there's so much in my life that is 100% out of my control is messing with my brain box!!!  I also learned that I only saved ONE duffel bag of clothes... my Theta Phi stuff, my WRHS band T-shirt, Boondock Saints and other T-shirts.  The other duffel had my blankets in it.  The cats were VERY interested in what I was bringing in from the garage.  LOL.  

Anyway, I just needed to rant a bit.  Ms ControlFreak is having issues - go figure.  That's another reason that I love my schedule though - most of the time the only person I can blame for something not going right is... ME!  And I get to have things going MY way on the weekends that I work.  I love it.  Anyway, I'm going to stress bake today - oatmeal raisin cookies for C, and standard chocolate chip cuz I can!  LOL - much love to all, MUAH!  :*