I feel as though I healed a lot this decade. I learned my worth and let go of a lot of hurt and pain that I had kept like a miser keeps their gold. I dated and boy, was THAT an eye opener. Wheeeew. Its a rough, rough world out there, the dating pool needs a LOT of chlorine. I endured tho because I also found my forever man, my person, my love, my nerdy weirdo who I'm gonna keep for forever and a day. We made it all officially official with a church ceremony and an arcade reception and a crazy ass bar crawl after party! So I'm super excited to see what the next decades have in store for US as well as just ME. It's been a trip learning to live with a hubby, but we are learning, and the kitty has even come around.
I got my masters degree this decade as well, and quit working at the hospital to pursue a job overseas. Ended up teaching English in South Korea for 2 years, meeting many interesting people, learning a LOT about myself, South Korean culture, being broken down to almost the end, and then building myself back. Lot of pain, but also a lot of laughter and love. I will forever cherish my 2 besties and fondly recall many others, while wishing nothing but the best for the rest. Living abroad is challenging and tensions run high. Tho I may not have liked everyone, I hope they found what they were looking for, and our paths need never again cross. I also learned I am NOT suited for teaching. Came home and helped Mom care for her hubby, taking a reatil job to pay the bills. When the opportunity to come back to the hospital arose, I took it. Coming back to TX was coming home, and I'm also NOT suited for retail.
Now I'm working in the same department, but the job has certainly changed. My boss is different (I miss K, but I'm also happy that she's happy and my new boss is chill), and I have a career path in mind. At least, I know I'm good at this job, I enjoy it, and I think I can life the life I want while doing doing it. So though I'm technically back where I was 10 years ago, the circumstances are DRASTICALLY different and I don't regret leaving at all. Sometimes you have to leave and come back for jobs to realize what they had and treat you accordingly. Now I'm planning to get my certification, which will make me more marketable, and see where that can take us.
J and I took a little trip to Cracker Barrel. First time I'd ever been, but I'd heard that they had bat salt and pepper shakers that I wanted to see if we could find.
I also booked a pedicure and a massage (2 weeks between em) as little treats for me. There is a place called Island massage spa here with a Hawaiian theme, and I love it. The prices are reasonable and the people are very nice.
I'm back at the gym, and this experience has proved 1 very important thing. Diet and exercise don't mean JACK for me when it comes to weight loss. If I want the scale to move, the only thing that works is full days of no food at all. So now I'm more focused on healthy aging. I'll do the lifting to maintain muscles and cardio to make sure my heart doesn't decide to give out. I eat good, healthy foods that I enjoy and have decided that quality of life is more important than living up to a 'skinny' standard that is based on BMI BS anyway. My fat cells have accepted Jesus as their Lord and Savior and have been SAVED and aren't going ANYWHERE. LMAO. If the migraine meds help, then great. If not, meh. We see the neurologist on Aug 2. I've decided the surgery will not be this year. Next year would be soonest. Get it early, pay the damn deductible, and have everything else covered for the year. Also that would give us some time to save for it. And I'm NOT canceling the Italy trip.
Anyway, that's what has been on my mind lately. Please pray for my friend A who is getting neck surgery this week (fusing vertebrae and putting in some rods). I'll be out at her place to help during her recovery next weekend. Take care of each other, stay cool, and much love to all! 😘 MUAH!
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