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There were 2 anniversaries we celebrated this past week. The anniversary of our engagement and my grandparents 70th wedding anniversary. That's right. 70th. It's got me feeling a certain way. I've heard the first year of marriage is hard, and my friend C told me that I'd question ALL my life choices this year. Every time someone asks me how marriage is, I say it's weird. And it is. But not necessarily bad. It's just weird because up until now I've just had to deal with my crap, now I have to deal with my crap AND his crap. Then there's my family and his family. And his family is closer than my family, so there's more of that... and I have no past experiences to draw on, so it's just... weird. Then I think of gma and gpa. They must have dealt with a LOT of weird in their 70 years. 

I know J and I will figure this out, and im way too stubborn to give up easily, im still just really scared that im going to lose him somehow. Like, it could be a car wreck or his secret 2nd family, or maybe he just wakes up some day and realizes he doesnt want to be married. Ive never trusted a man this much before and its terrifying. To be clear, I don't really think the last 2 scenarios are likely to happen, but the more fantasy prone voices in my head sometimes get out of control. I'm also still very aware of how socially awkward I can be, so lunches with the in-laws are stressful for me. So yeah, that's a thing. What do you do when the in-laws call you? Hehehe... (bad boys bad boys, whatcha gonna do). Anyway, that's the relationship update. 

I've maintained relationships with friends, but the romantic aspect really does change things. I got to have margaritas with A on Thursday. She's recovering well, the PT is definitely helping. She also had a bday this past week. As far as I'm concerned, she's still 42. Hasn't aged since Europe. My bestie came up this weekend and we went to oktoberfest together. 

Obligatory selfie 😁

Thank God for these 2. They've saved my sanity more times than I can count. 

J and I are gearing up for the first major event that will test us. I'm going on vacation without him. I'm getting ready to join some family in Italy for my aunts bucket list trip to Tuscany and he is staying home. Before you ask, this trip was planned way before we even got together, I told him about it soon after we started dating, and frankly this trip is why we didn't get married on Halloween this year. 😁 we'll, that and I didn't want to live together before we got married. Weird hang up but that's catholicism for you. I'm really looking forward to this trip. I'm going to be off work for 2 weeks. 2 weeks to be away from the foolishness of GRMC, which I'm becoming less and less tolerant of. Well, I can still tolerate it, but its becoming more difficult to keep my damn mouth shut. So I'm definitely due for a vacation. 

We had lunch with his family on Sunday, then went to Spirit Halloween for out yearly pilgrimage. Hehe.

Then we dropped off the niece and went to meet up with the bestie at Anamias. 😁

Such a great evening!

So sorry for the late post, but I accidentally deleted the original blog post, and then was busy most of the rest of the day. 😁 hope you all had a good day as well. Much loves!