Looking Ahead

Since I didn't know what to do with myself during my stay-cation, I did something I haven't done since high school... I stayed up LATE reading a book! Lol. Got the first 3 drangonlance novels at half price books and have been reliving the adventure! (It's been so long, it's like a whole new story.)

Personally, Ive been struggling with accepting things as they are, not how I'd like them to be/how i thought they were. Maybe it was too much reading as a kid, or imagining the world to be other than it is, but I really, really have a hard time accepting how shit things can be sometimes. I want to fight against the suck, but sometimes there's nothing specific (or too much) to fight. It's a hard thing to accept. Sigh. So what I'm going to work on in 2026 is accepting how things are as opposed to focusing on how I'd like them to be. 

Alternatively, I can take life like a cat. Eat, sleep, ZOOMIES, and sleep again. 😁 look at those toe beans!!! 

I made another weight tracker for the new year, here's what the old one looked like

Took until May for anything to move, and of course there was a lot of back and forth depending on all those mysterious factors that affect women. Here's to another 33-45 lbs to go!! I've got this. Right? Right. If I could get there in Korea, I can get there in the US. I will be experimenting with more high protein, high fiber foods in the new year. Wish me luck... I'm gonna try LENTILS! You know the weird thing tho? Every time I go to put on my jeans I think there's no way they will fit... then they do. Is this body dysmorphia? I don't see any change from the beginning of the year, tho I know there has been. The jeans are even a little loose, which totally freaks me out. Eventually ill need to go shopping for clothes and isnt THAT going to be fun. Sigh. Womens sizes are all made up anyway, i dont know why im freaked out at the prospect of shopping for clothes... in a STORE, not online. I love bloomchic but frankly they assume my top must be big if my bottom is and frankly.. no. Big shoulders, small boobs, decent waist, big butt/hips. Yep, gotta try things on to make sure they fit right. No more online shopping. (Other than what I already ordered. Dont judge me! I need to see if these companies are as good as they say. No ordering clothes from Amazon, tho. That i can get behind.) Nothing is real... its all so strange. Strawberry fields forever. 🤪❤️

The cold snap was fun. I sent both seesters their respective Christmas boxes (again, don't judge me), got my oil changed and got gas. Then A and I met up for happy hour which was amazing as always. We met up at Rio mambo in weatherford. It was great. $6 margs and half off appetizers, good convo, honestly some of the best therapy EVER. We need our no-judgement happy hours. Makes life better. The cold wasn't awful, and with my time off I reorganized the closet to bring the sweaters to the front and the sundresses to the back. This being TX, I'll probably just be able to switch back and forth between em. My year of not buying clothes and Getting rid of what I don't wear went well. I have a trash bag full of clothes to donate and PLENTY of new earrings and bracelets cuz apparently I just replace one obsessive shopping category with another. Sigh. I'm trying to fight against American capitalism, but MAN it's tough. 

Bestie came up for some quality time this past weekend. In keeping with my "being gentle" theme, we decided to spend the day with some relaxing soaks at World Springs. We also went to our favorite mexican place for margs. It was exactly what the doctor ordered. Getting to spend time with 2 of my favorite Texans is a blessing and when it happens twice in a week, well, that's nearly unprecedented!!

First drinks of many! 

Beautiful day

Winter margarita 😊

The sun went down. We did a floating sound bath, then went to Anamias for some dinner. Then home to hubbs and kitty cat. 😆

On Saturday we went to the one and only January farmers market! We had a lot of fun, then went to Twisted Sisters for lunch.

The deviant sister and the spicy sister.

I'm proud of us, we've been thru the ringer together. 😁 so happy this lady is in my life and up for adventures. We really need to live CLOSER!!! Tho if we did, we'd probably get in trouble together. 

We had a lazy rest of the day with naps, movies, leftovers, and snuggling the kitty. Sunday bestie headed home. I'm gonna get groceries and... sigh... get ready to return to work on Monday. 😥 it was so nice to not have to worry about it for a week. Sigh. Here's to starting 2026 with 100,000 miles on the car. 🥳🎉🥳