Musings of a Catholic metal head: Work before play

We had a regular work week, or at least that was the plan. Hubbs didn't feel well on Monday so he stayed home with the cat. Ace loved it. Thankfully he was better by Tuesday.

He still doesn't understand why im obsessed with him. Lol.

Wednesday and Thursday were business as usual. Did I have a slight case of vacation-it's? Maaaaybe. Did I see RED on Wed when I realized I've been asking someone to do something since Aug 2024 and he STILL hasn't done it? Abso-friggin-lutley. Did I briefly consider a voodoo doll or generational curse? Yep, sure did. More people should be REALLY happy I'm a Catholic and won't actually curse them into the 4th generation. I just love when someone decides that my stuff isn't "priority" and therefore they don't have to do it. Sigh... he damages my calm. Otherwise, I'm working on another grant. Woot.

Thurs and Fri we had all-day webinars for Joint Commission stuffs. So. Fun. I got caught in a verification loop that threw me into a homicidal tail spin, so that was fun. Ultimately i was able to get into the webinar and i think only a couple people noticed my slightly inappropriate password. I was more than ready for Friday.

Then on Friday I found out that in order for me to apply for the grant, I no longer could use the usernames and passwords for the 2 sites that I had used before. Nor could I use the username, password, and email that I already had for other parts of the system. I had to request the SAME access to the SAME system with a DIFFERENT email, password, and security question. So now I have 2 log ins for the SAME GOVERNMENT WEBSITE. One is only to apply for grants, the other one is to manage the grants. MAKE IT MAKE SENSE. The system already allows for requesting access to other 'apps' but not the one for submitting applications. WHY?!?!? The rage... it BURNS.

This has led to some introspection. Why am I sooooo rage-y? I think it's not perimenopause. I think it's being 100% DONE with the BS of our entire system. Between no repercussions for the disgusting atrocities on the Epstein list, 62 MILLION views of the rape site, and the general experience of being a woman in this world, I. Want. It. All. To. BURN. I want everyone who was a part of the trafficking and cover ups to be prosecuted. I want all the viewers of the rape site to be rounded up and castrated. I want the gov to care more about healthcare for all, feeding the hungry, free higher education, and investing in our people than they do about waging war. I want people to be educated, to be able to get sick and NOT have to declare bankruptcy, to be able to care for their family members without being screwed for the rest of their life. I have RAGE because institutional poverty shouldn't be a thing. No one should die because they can't afford to go to the doctor. No one in this country should go hungry, and I HATE that this is still a thing. I. Am. FULL. of. RAGE.

Oh, on top of that. Did you know that I have 3 authentication apps on my phone for getting access to 7 different online systems in order to do my job? So I can't go back to a dumb phone if I want to keep my job. Also, my personal email now has to be linked to at least one system to apply for grants. So, work-life balance is KAPUT. Not only do I have work email and texting on my phone, I can't access certain websites without the authenticators on my phone. I say if I need a smartphone to do my job, then my job should provide the damn phone. Work phone, personal phone. Work email, personal email. No cross contamination! Sigh... I was meant to live in a cabin, growing food, and hunting. Not being in an office, cut off from the sun, dealing with petty BS. (To be fair, I recognize when I'm being petty. And I'm less petty than I could be, so that's a thing.)

The usual stupid stupids, on top of the state of the country/world, and my decreased capacity for tolerating ALL OF IT leads to... RAGE. SIGH.

Anyway, on the happier note... hubbs and I are celebrating 2nd anniversary, which apparently is cotton. So he got me...

Shark heating pad. And I got him...

Tickle me Godzilla!!! Lol... he shakes.

Also, hubby has wanted me to get into Japanese books. I have been resistant because I doubt my ability to read from right to left. So what does the Madman do? He finds the book at geek out that I'd LOVE and CHALLENGES me... then, he says I'm right and I couldn't do it. So that awakens my spite. He got my spite, AND my competitiveness going. So, I got the damn book.

I'm gonna learn to read the wrong way around. Sigh. Also there may have been booze involved.