Exhaustion and emotion

 I know it's been a while and please forgive me.  Basically work is continuing as normal - OT on Tues - Fri is killing me, it's nice to have the kids back in class, the weather is cold (tho not as bad as TX recently), I'm looking forward to coming home, etc, etc.  I love J so much because she saw me for about 2 mins on our call tonight and 1) mentioned how red my nose was (due to cold) and 2) said I looked REALLY tired.  She is not wrong.

It's a weird mixed bag of emotions to be leaving Korea after 2 years.  There's a part of me that wonders if I've made any kind of difference - what am I coming home having accomplished kind of a thing.  Some of the kids will remember me fondly, perhaps some co-workers as well.  If I made English interesting for any of them, I'll consider it a win.  I was able to travel all around Korea, met some fun people, healed from a lot of my earlier trauma that I had been carrying around, went to Taiwan and Japan, learned a lot about myself and my coping mechanisms, learned how to communicate without knowing the language, tried to make people's days a little brighter (or at least not contribute to the dark)... really, it's been a successful experience.  I'll miss certain things about Korea (bagging my own groceries, some of the food, bathroom stalls without HUGE gaps all around the door), and certain others I won't miss (not being able to flush TP all the time, language barrier issues, taking out my trash to something other than a tree).  I'm sad to be leaving Korea, I'm not sad to be leaving my job.  That being said, I will miss some of the kids.  They did worm their way into my heart.  I do need a break - this public holidays and one week off this year thing was BRUTAL.

I suspected that I wasn't cut out for teaching before I ever came here, and I worked at it, I really did.  I now know that I'm meant to be an administrator or a librarian before EVER being a teacher.  J and I did have a scheme where she can teach and I can run the business, leaving her free to teach.  We'd make one helluva team, just FYI.  I like the numbers and admin stuff, she likes the kids (I mean ALL the kids, even the nightmare ones).  I'll find something more suited to my temperament, I'm sure.  

Really there's not much more to report.  The pension office visit went well, so I should get that payment some time in April or May.  I need to cancel my wifi, my phone, and my bank account.  Then I need my covid test and to get to the airport.  Cleaning, washing, and giving away stuff will happen that last weekend I'm here, and I'll be eating out a LOT before I leave so that I can defrost and clean out the fridge (properly).  It's the start of Lent, so I intend to pray more (it's been dismal) and give up a bad habit (that I've struggled with on and off for YEARS) and of course get to confession and Mass (when I get home, probably...).  It's a lot of small stuff that has to be done and I'll be doing it.  March 4 doesn't seem too far away, and I've confirmed that Feb 26th is my last working day (and my favorite class will be the last one I have).  All in all I'm excited, scared, overwhelmed, curious, exhausted, burned out, counting down, happy, cold, stressed, trying to enjoy my last days while making sure to tie up all loose ends.  Pray for me.  Much love, miss you and see you soon(ish)... MUAH!  :*