Holding Pattern

I'm trying to enjoy the now without worrying about the future. It's tough, as I'm waiting to hear back about a possible promotion at work (and thinking of all the ways we can accomplish some of our goals). I want to start my strategic planning NOW but I need to wait until I know what's what. It's making me crazy, which is why I'm trying not to think about it. I'm not good at waiting and it seems... that's all I can do. Sigh.

This weekend was pretty laid back. My fella had a bit of a head cold on Friday, so we didn't get to see each other until Saturday. I had a webinar on Friday, so I was kinda thrown off by that anyway. I took Thursday as my usual day off, which was nice because it was also raining that day and I got to spend a cozy day inside reading about Shackleford and the Endurance. I got as far as 'ocean camp' and now I'm bummed cuz they had to shoot 3 pups and the ship's cat. Boo. I know all the humans survived. Shackleford was known for getting his men out alive. Unlike Scott who perished with 2 men after reaching the south pole. Why these men went on an ANTARTIC expedition without knowing how to ski or run a dog sled is MIND BOGGLING to me. English hubris, perhaps? It was at the beginning of WW1, so the empire was in full swing, if memory serves. Ah well. I've left them camping on the ice, about 1.5 miles from the boat, which has been caught and crushed by the ice, and is slowly sinking. 

Saturday I was able to meet up with my fella and celebrate his family's September birthdays. We went to his sister's house and put together the grab bags, then ordered pizza and wings, everyone ate, then we had cake and ice cream, then he went to play D&D with his group and I went home. I ended up in a mental spiral where I overanalyzed every interaction, everything I said, everything that happened, and then had to ask if he still liked me. Good news, he does. Ah, the joys of being an overthinker and having a hard time believing people genuinely enjoy my company. I am grateful that he understood and responded. I'm also glad his head cold didn't last all weekend. 

Goody bags

He let me steal one of his Koopa straws

Costco cake and chocolate chip ice cream

My total "haul" 😁

I keep telling my fella hes one of the most generous people I've ever known. He's the one who usually gets everything for the goody bags, and he tends to get me things at random. I've been drinking Starbucks Iced Coffee most of the summer (sorry, can't do the hot coffee when it's 109 out), and depending on where I get it, it ranges from $6.50 a bottle to $10 a bottle. (I didn't know about target selling it for $6.50 until we went there randomly one day.) Well, he decided I needed an iced coffee maker, so he got one for me.

I am pleased to report it makes good coffee and is easy to clean and reload. Hehe.

I was sitting on my couch yesterday and realized that I have made a pretty cozy apt for myself here. As you know, I believe in a 'creepy cozy' asthetic, and I think I've achieved it! 

I'm glad I'm at the point in my life where I can afford to live the way I want to live. Now, if I get that promotion, maybe I'll be able to travel the way I'd like to travel.

So today being Sunday I'll have another day to myself. I need to vacuum, hard boil some eggs, make my lunch/dinners for the week, clean the mess, plan my outfits for the week, pack the gym bag, and generally prepare. I have Rio mambo with A on thurs night to look forward to, as well as Oktoberfest on Saturday and a possible bestie visit! So all in all life is good. I'm holding on to hope for the future... really all I want is to live the life I've been living without having the need to continually check my bank account any time I need to make a purchase. Sigh. Living is expensive. 

I hope everyone is having a good October-eve month of September! The next few months are my very favorites 😁 happy Hallowthankmas!!! 🎃🦃🎄🎉