Then Tuesday came. And it was a normal day. We had a rep with the joint commission resources come in, took her to lunch at primos, and then after lunch I had a weird episode. It started with only seeing half of what I was looking at. I realized that about half the sight in my right eye was gone. I mentioned this because I was pretty sure someone noticed I was off. The ER director told me I was about to have a hellacious headache because that always is an indicator of a migraine for her. I said ok, it resolved, and we went on. Then my face and right hand started going numb. When I mentioned that, my boss and the JCR lady took me down to the ER. I got a room, laid down on the bed, and was quickly whisked away to radiology for a CT of my head. Apparently my symptoms mimicked a stroke to the point they were worried about that. Good news: it wasn't a stroke. Meh news: it was a hemiplegic migraine... we think. The MRI is pending. Bad news: I'm now freaking out that my brain is gonna throw a cog. Whats my biggest fear? Losing my mind. What is a trigger for these migraines? Stress. What does this diagnosis cause? STRESS!!!! It's officially a catch-22 situation where my brain is what can get caught in the crossfire. Its a lot, all at once. I never did get the usual kind of headache... but I can 100% tell you that my tension headache on Thursday sucked.
I'm sure you are wondering if this has ever happened before. The answer is yes, but I never got it fully checked out. The last time I got dizzy at work, I got my blood drawn. Nothing abnormal. I wouldn't have gotten this checked except the numbness in my face and hand worried me. I never got the full-on debilitating headache, so I never considered it to be migraines. Usually when I get a headache I blame my corn allergy and move on. This wasn't that. The diagnosis from the neurologist was "complex migraines." The more I've looked into it, my symptoms match "hemiplegic migraine." Super rare (shocker) and puts me at a very slightly increased risk of stroke. Which... goody gum drops. SO now I have that to worry about.
The straw that broke the camels back for me was the email from my old energy company telling me my "useage" for the past week. The past week, in my old apt, which I'm not in anymore. Apparently if you don't CALL to cancel they just continue your service until you DO call. Growl, snarl. If my contract with you ends, I expect you to stop that contract. The phone call annoyed me, the rep annoyed me, and I kinda let them have it with the post call survey they sent. If I can sign up online, I should be able to cancel online. So when I came in on thrus I looked rough. Let's count the stressors, shall we?
1. I'm babysitting animals and the house, so far only one feral cat has died, and the cows are less than cooperative
2. The dogs wake me up a lot
3. My fiance is moving into the new place this weekend
4. We are starting to freak about things that have to get done soon
5. We are getting married in 2 weeks
6. Family logistics/dynamics are crazy
7. When I go home I'll have a roomie and a kitty
8. Friends are coming in next week for rehearsal
9. Friends and family are staying for wedding shenanigans
10. Work is still a thing
11. If I get too stressed I might have another migraine
12. Thats only a working diagnosis until I get my MRI.
In related news, my ears look NAKED!!! I don't really take out the inner earrings, that's been a trip! Kind of a pain to get them all out, not gonna lie.
13. I got distracted by canceling my old energy provider, so I wasn't as careful with the remote as I should have been. It still works, but it's not pretty. This is the 2nd remote that has died under my care. Sorry, K.
Sigh. It's going to be ok, we've got this. On the upper hand, the red spot on one of the feral cats behinds has resolved itself. So yay for the white kitty! I took Friday as a day to myself. Went to town to a coffee shop to do some journaling, dropped by brookshires for wine and soy milk, came back and had a relaxing day on the ranch. As i was leaving brookshires I was in my car and a guy knocked on the window. I rolled it down and he said his son had something he wanted to tell me. His little boy (5 or 6) says "you are very beautiful." It was sooooo cute!!
Saturday I woke up to 2 new additions to the ranch.
I went to Stephenville to meet up with Ana since we weren't able to have our usual Thursday Rio Mambo date. We ended up at chilis and gorged ourselves on appetizers.
So, the insurance company doesn't want to approve my MRI. Big surprise. I'm going to have to appeal. J has moved into the new apt, at least mostly. Still some stuff to do. The poor kitty has been beside himself since he doesn't understand what's happening.
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