The thing is, I've done every kind of diet out there. I did keto when it was Atkins. I did the 'just eat healthy and exercise' and I did lose a lot of weight, but I got freaked out and quit. I did South Beach, I did meal prepping, I felt guilty when I indulged in chocolate, margaritas, etc. I tried smaller portions when I went out... I researched, I bought supplements, I took fish oil, omegas, vitamins, etc. Fasting is the only thing that has made sense - it's easy for me. Some days I just don't want to eat. I know that's also partially a symptom of my ongoing battle with depression, but some days I just can't be bothered. I know that there's enough fat deposits (read: energy storage) in me that I can afford to miss a meal or 2. I'm trying to learn how to listen to my body - all of it: the stomach, brain, and spirit - to figure out if I'm hungry or stressed. If I'm stressed, would I feel better if I eat? If not, then I don't, if so then I do. The loss has slowed down quite a lot. I'm maintaining at around 195-200 lbs on each weigh-in. Yes, that means that I'm going back to ADF - alternate day fasting - where I don't eat all day 2x a week. Then I'll have 2 meals on the days after (up days). I still want to see what I look like at my goal weight (approx 30 lbs from now). It has been fun losing the X in front of the L when I order clothes now.
The other thing that hasn't been so much fun as it has been maddening is the people who have opinions. S told me that it's not good to try to lose weight during the winter. Something about your body needing the fat to stay warm. I say bollocks to that - I have thermals for a reason! I just bought some that fit under my jeans... woot! They do kind of feel like a 2nd skin, which is taking some getting used to.
Work-wise things are about to get off the chain. We start our immersion program on Monday the 13th (coincidence?!) which means I'll be at work by 9:50, start teaching at 10:10, stop teaching at 7, and go home at 8:30. It's gonna be a long few weeks. Immersion doesn't end until Feb 12th, and we do have a week vacation in the middle of it. My sis and bro-in-law will be coming here for the vacation, so I'm SUPER STOKED about that. Although I'm also already sad to think of them leaving. I'm also slightly nervous about them staying with me... it's a REALLY small bathroom. I'm sure we'll figure it out, though. I'm gonna get LOTS OF MONGA HUGS!!!!!
As for the rest of life... I'm living it. LOL. Nothing really to report... been thinking that it might be a good idea to try to get out and meet people... then I remember why I don't like meeting people... so basically I'm going around and around with myself... and then staying home.
A and I went to Vatos today to catch up and enjoy our Mexican food. It was lovely as always.
Anyway, that was my weekend. Much love to all, hope you're staying warm and getting some good cuddles. :) MUAH!
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