C is for coffee

You know what is an interesting thing that people rarely talk about?  Our relationships with our bodies.  Dr. Cox in Scrubs says something about hating his, which is why he works out so much.  Personally, I'm having a hard time really figuring out what my body is trying to tell me.  It's so easy to just go thru the day, trusting the organs to be doing what they do while we think of all kinds of other stuff.  Of course, me being me there is a certain amount of "shut up, body, you're fine." 

There is a lot more stuff out there about accepting our bodies.  I have come around to the idea that this meat-filled skeleton is the means by which I experience all that life has to offer.  Therefore, the better I take care of it, the more I can enjoy this beautiful life.  (Yes, I had temporarily forgotten this during the last few months... sue me.)  However, the thing that I did not realize and am having a hard time with sometimes is my FACE!  I never thought I looked a lot like my dad but... MAN... I'm starting to see it.  Not that it's necessarily a bad thing, but it's disconcerting.  Looking into a reflection of what should be quite a familiar sight, and yet there's a certain amount of 'is that really me?'  Jess, I totally get what you were talking about when you said stuff about my jawbone... and I've always loved my cheekbones.  The thing is... is it really my face?!?!  I've gone thru these phases before - when I just don't like my face.  Which is strange, because I am loving this haircut... you'd think I'd like how it makes my face look.  I dunno - these are the rambling thoughts of the Mandi about an hour after she woke up and about 3/4 of the way thru her first coffee of the AM. 

Now on a slightly related subject... I can't understand why someone would try to get me to have a 'cheat weekend.'  Here's the back story - every 2 weeks we meet up on a Saturday to play D&D.  We generally start around 3-ish and go until 10ish.  I thought about this and I have decided that since we're busy for so long and I'd usually open my window on the weekends around 3 anyway, why not just make those Saturdays fasting days?  I'd be distracted, it's easy to say no to food, why not?  I explained this to my friend S and he suggested instead that I just eat like normal on those days.  That way I guess I can go with everyone for food and... I dunno... bond?  I'm guessing here.  Anyway, I'm planning on going with the fast.  So on D&D weeks, I'll be doing a 4:3 week instead of a 5:2 week like usual.  (For those who are wondering, it's 4 eating days to 3 fasting ones.  Alternate day fasting to shift those last 20 lbs.)  Now don't get me wrong - in June when I go to the beach and the green tea fields, THAT will be a 'cheat' weekend.  I won't worry about windows or fasting lengths that weekend.  I am super excited that the scale is continuing to go the right direction... I'm inching closer to my goal (tho trust me, I'm not at all in danger of being cadaver-like).  I'm actually excited to go clothes shopping when I come home. 

Not much else to report - I've gotta make a Costco run today (I'm out of nuts).  Otherwise I'm probably going to stay home, paint my nails, maybe work on my little painting of my sharky shark, possibly will be cooking later, depending on what I find at Costco. 

Here's a little funness for you - I'm still trying to figure out my angles and so I've been playing with the camera on my phone.  Also, as I said, I'm loving this haircut so I'm trying to figure out how to show it off!  I think I'm failing miserably, though.

 This is probably the best one.  Hehe

DAD'S NOSE!!!!  LMAO!!!!!

Much love to all who stuck with me through this one.  I was supposed to be at the lantern fest this weekend... sigh... stupid Corona.