I'm always OK

Those of you who are on my Facebook know that once again, I am fella-less. Don't ask me what happened. One day I was everything that he ever wanted, the next day he was making excuses about why he couldn't spend any time with me. I asked him to call me on Thursday, woke up on Friday to "This person is unavailable on messanger." Per a google search, the most likely reason for this is - he blocked me. No notification, no "never mind, I'm done." Just blocked. I've decided if I ever write a book about my dating experiences (Grandma mentioned that recently) I'm going to call it "Disappointed, but not surprised." Seems to be the theme of my dating life, honestly. The thing is, this changes nothing. I still got up, got the car inspected, changed the lightbulbs above my license plate, did my laundry (all my bedding), went to the library, got my groceries, picked up a reuben, had my lunch, and watched movies. I am disappointed... I was hoping to have company when I make the cake tomorrow... but I'm always going to be able to take care of myself.

Attempt #1

 I'm content, really. I have a good job with amazing co-workers, I can see one good friend every other week and it's just a mere 4 hour drive to my bestie. Another good friend lives only 3 hours away, and we have talked about me taking a train trip to see him next time (bypassing I-35). I'm working on my health with another friend who lives in Denver which means I get to chat with him WAY more often (very fun, btw, we have even re-named suitcase crunches to taco crunches!). When I first start talking to somoene, they usually laugh at me when I talk about my friends and how they are all scattered from coast to coast. It's different for my friends who have been married for ever - they just need each other. Single people need our friends. They are our support system. They are who we can call for a ride to the airport, or to pick us up after a procedure. They are who we turn to when another relationship goes down the tubes... honestly mine follow the whole roller coaster with me. I get a healthy portion of both "well, that's guys" and "no, you deserve better." I would have lost it a long time ago without my friends. 

There should be a better way to do this!

 I've been treating myself. I took myself to BJ's Brewhouse on Thursday night, got a reuben to celebrate St Paddy's Day, and tomorrow I'm trying a crock pot version of chicken cordon bleu. I'll be serving it with cauliflower mashed potatoes and roasted veggies. I'm excited. I'm also making a sheet cake for a 15 year anniversary and renewal of vows for part of my Mexican family. Cross your fingers round 2 of making sunflowers goes better than round 1 did. I'll be sure to share pix... you know, if I like it. 

BJ's dinner. Ahi poke tacos and side salad.

St Paddy's goodness. Reuben from jasons deli and salad.

This is the kind of thing I send to my trainer man.

 I do think I need to move my fasting days. It's been Monday and Wednesday, but if I'm going to do weights on Monday then really I need to be eat that day. So I'm thinking of fasting on Tuesdays and turning that into my cardio day. I can then weigh on Wednesdays, which works since that's the weigh-in day for the weight loss challenge I'm part of at work. I like that my trainer man is willing to work with me on the fasting... tho he does want me to eat 180 grams of protien a DAY. 180 GRAMS!?! Who can even DO that?? LOL.

Anyway, just wanted to update people. I'm taking another break from dating - it's not fun anymore, and I'm tired of the talk-meet-ghost cycle. Please, no platitudes, cliche's, or various other sundry "it could still happen" type tropes. I know them all, already. Give me a few months and then I'll be a hopeful dupe once again. Happy St Paddy's, fam!!

This is me for a while.