Yep, the storm has passed, the issues have been recognized and named, which makes them SO much easier to deal with. I even allowed myself to be sad for a few days, which is probably the healthiest thing I've done for myself in a while. I still have an ideal of how the world 'should' work (I know, I know, don't get me started), and I'm working toward accepting it for how it is/identifying where I can change it. It's been an interesting road of introspection and healing that I've put myself on, and even when it's painful... well, better to rip off the bandage and clean out the festering putrescence before cleansing it and wrapping it up to heal properly this time. It's just harder to do when the wound is emotional rather than physical. However, I know I'll be better for this.
As an aside, I wish I had occasion to use 'putrescence' more often. What a fantastic word... it literally oozes in my head when I think of it. I can almost smell the word. (No, I'm not on drugs/drunk, I just really love certain words - it's a side effect of being a bibliophile.)
It's been nice to feel like me again. I even sometimes think I look like me. The WTF line between my eyes will probably become a mainstay, so there's that. I do like the hairstyle - it's so easy and I'm so lazy. I had to laugh at J - I found a lip ring, so I was wearing it and I sent a pic to her. She was... not a fan. So the other night she told me under what circumstances the lip ring would not... detract... from my face. I laughed and laughed.
So not much has happened so far this week. Well, let me amend that... not much has happened that I've been at all a part of/privy to. There was some kind of drama that went down, but I was home watching netflix and talking to people on Kakao (a messaging app that everyone in Korea uses). Once again, introversion leads to peaceful life. LOL. My computer at work had issues, but they have been (mostly) sorted. J and I have pretty much decided that we need to have a friend date every week to go for Indian food. That's right - I friggin' LOVE Indian food. I've had the butter chicken and some kind of vegetarian dish, a ton of naan... and I usually finish her biryani with chicken. There's a great Indian place close by and they don't close until 10. I'm also cooking a lot - last week I had 3 co-workers over for food, and I cooked for 2 of them. The last one cooked for me cuz it was chicken fajita nachos. I think tonight I'm going to make chicken and sauteed Brussels sprout pasta with a Parmesan and mozzarella cream sauce.
Let's see, I was able to catch up with my bestie back home, and Dad, Carole, and I had a great call on Monday (my time). It makes my heart happy to hear that they miss me so much that they want me to come home on a break sometime next year. Hehe... I mean, it's still nice to hear that my family wants me around sometimes. Oh, I'm also getting to the point where I'll start applying for gov jobs. I imagine I could stay in Korea for about another 3 years before even getting a job with the gov, but that gives me time to learn more than 5 Korean words, right? (Hello, goodbye, thank you, older brother, older sister, for those who are wondering.) The weekend may or may not involve getting Halloweeny in Seoul - so stay tuned for pix/updates.
On another note - I love wearing clothes that fit, but MAN I get distracted by how good I'm looking. LOL - I've reached the 'lock up your sons' and 'DAMN I look good' stage of weight loss. About 25 lbs to goal, then I'm going to throw away my scale, live on one meal a day, and enjoy my life. That's right, it's a lifestyle, not a diet. Unless I want to gain everything back, in which case I can go back to eating 3x a day.
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