Overwhelmed

When things happen, good or bad, it can cause stress. When many things happen all at once, it can create even more stress as small things add up and become big things. This is happening to me. Let's recap:

1. I've fallen for a man who is amazing (good stress).

2. My boss isn't going to be my boss anymore and I'm unsure how this will play out (bad stress).

3. I can't plan for the future because 1 and 2 just threw everything up in the air (good/bad stress, its fun imagining life together with my amazing man, less fun imagining all the best/worst case scenarios at work).

4. I'm still trying to lose weight and that has either stagnated or gone the wrong direction, sometimes leaving me feeling like Jabba the Hutt (bad stress).

5. I'm also trying to save $ but life is expensive and I'm often raiding my savings in order to "float" me until payday (sheepish bad stress, I can plan better). 

6. My windshield just got a smattering of about 20 "divets" due to an 18 wheeler with unsecured gravel passing me on a 2 lane rd. 

2 Of the nasties.

Obviously there is a lot going on, and most of it is out of my control, which is not my favorite. I'm usually pretty chill, but when things go wrong with my car I get SUPER stressed... the damn thing is my life. Sigh.

Nice crack after 8 hrs. Sigh. So today I got pad Thai, came home, ate half of it, had some wine, and watched monster movies until I felt slightly better. I'd like to just SCREAM. Sigh. What a mess things became... no wonder I wanna clean. 

I tried explaining stress cleaning to my fella. Not sure if he understands, but he's very supportive. It's WAY too hot to stress bake. I did get some cookbooks for Mediterranean food and Buddha bowls. Still trying to lose the weight. Sigh. At least my guy doesn't think I look like Jabba the Hutt. He's even seen me in full on goblin mode and he still likes me. Lol. He's gonna meet my Texas peoples this weekend! I'm stoked. And yes, there will be anamias. 

It's gonna be a stressful couple months. I told my fella I was excited for our August 'goblin' weekend and he shot back about a goblin month. This man GETS me!!! We be goblins together and it be great. 😁 someday we can see each other after bad days and get hugs... sadly it is not this day. 

Hope all of you are drinking lots of water, staying cool, and having your own goblin days. Tons of love 😘 MUAH!