Stress

Stress... we have it, we manage it. Sometimes that means self-medicating, sometimes that means therapy sessions with besties while self medicating. Sometimes we fail to manage it, bottle it up, and eventually something pushes us over the edge and we lash out, cry, and carry on until we can get the lid back on the bottle (imagine a coke bottle that's been shaken like your teeth on a road full of washboards, then someone drops a Mentos in it). Afterwards, as you're trying to clean up the coke and mentos mess, you try to figure out how you let it build up like that (and hope that the person who got the brunt of it is understanding and loves you enough to grab a mop).

I've had a couple mentos explosions lately, and I've decided to seek professional help. I want to be open on here, but I went back and forth at admitting this. There's still a stigma attached to therapy. And also a swallowing of pride. I have to admit that I need outside help. My core group is wonderful, but I can't burden them with everything, and I can't manage this on my own. I've tried. I've failed. And I'm afraid if I keep trying on my own, I'll push away my hubbs who, unfortunately, has been the one to bear the brunt of my coke-mentos volcano. (Hereafter known as "mentos meltdown.) That isn't fair to him, and when something isn't working it's best to try something else. Now the funny part of this is that originally they were gonna pair me with M, but due to administrative issues that didn't work. I laughed because M is the same name as my older sis, who LOVES telling me what to do. I'm not sure I'd be able to take a professional M seriously. So instead I'm paired with K. A neutral name. Lol. 

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate my friends who lend me their ears and perspectives. In fact, both suggested therapy WAY before all the mentos explosions. There's something about hearing a good friend say "you're dealing with a LOT" that hits different. The thing is, they are also dealing with a LOT, so I don't want to add to their mental load, you know? We muddle thru as best we can and professionals exist for a reason!

I gotta say, actually keeping the therapy appt and making my workouts have been the 2 hardest things for me to do this week. I'm gonna blame the increased humidity from the storms that both broke and threatened for the gym issue. I've just felt... blah. My cardio has only been 24 mins instead of the 35-45 it usually is. As for the therapy appt... well, that's self-explanatory isn't it? AND my neuro follow up was Friday. In all seriousness, that follow up could have been an email. I've had a huge case of the i-dont-wanna's this week. The good news is that all appts went well and i still hit the gym 3x this week. Yay me looking after physical and mental health! Woot.

In the meantime, there are rumblings of changes at work, which could be good juju. I'm interested to see what happens. That's all out of my hands, so I'm gonna continue to do my thing and hope for good things, too. Best bit is that I'm going to a quality bootcamp in Abilene at the end of the month, so yay work trips. Hehe. 

Friday was a dreary, rainy day and so hubbs and I took the chance to be goblins. I came home from my appt, changed into PJs, and we spent the day relaxing around the apt. Oh, and signing our new lease. We gonna be here for a bit. We tried Mod pizza. OMG, we are 100% fans!

Lazy kitty

This is pretty much the perfect example of our Friday laziness. 😁

Happy kitty with NO idea of personal space

Saturday we went to SIL's house for breakfast. On the way home we stopped by movie trading Co, sprouts, and Kroger. Sprouts was fun, especially since we are apparently getting one next door to our apt complex. I'm excited! Hubbs got stuff and made us stuffed shells for dinner. OMG, sooo good! He stuffed them with ricotta and spinach. The caprisi salad had our fig balsamic on it. It was *chefs kiss* and I also kissed the chef. 😁😘

Since he cooked, I cleaned. Went to start the dishwasher and got an H2O error. After a year, I had to clean the filter. Lol. At least 2 lunches here, and one happy wifey. 😁

Sunday as always was a day for cleaning, Mass, and the unexpected joy of dinner with A. We can't do Thursday dinners this month, so we have to do Sunday dinners when we can. April kind of got away from me, not gonna lie. We are officially busy each weekend this month. Or at least let we have plans each weekend this month. Hehe. Fun with the funness. 

On a side note, does anyone else have "first sunday" chores? For me, it's changing and washing the bedding, washing all the towels, cleaning the cat's water fountain, and cleaning out the fridge if it needs it (today it doesnt). I think I'll probably end up puttering around and sweeping, maybe even mopping (gasp). Either way, I'm excited to see A today. I don't work tomorrow, so my week is ALL thrown off. Lol. 

I hope all is well for all of you, my friends. Much love from a chilly TX Sunday. 😁