The human brain is a weird thing. I was sad before M&M ever got here because I knew that they would be leaving after only a week. As amazing as it was to have them here, I knew I was going to miss them SO MUCH when they left. That anticipation of my mental state made my mental state at the time worse than it otherwise would have been. Such madness. Anyway, the funny thing is that I got their Christmas card a couple days after they left. How goofy is that?!? Got Mom's a couple days before M&M's.
And now on to the next weird thing that living over a year outside of the US has done to me. Forgive me for the language, but kitchen porn is officially a thing for me right now. I met a new person and he sent me a picture of his... OVEN. It's a real, 4-burner (electric of course) range, with an honest-to-goodness FULL SIZED OVEN!!! Then he sent a pic of his kitchen (galley, nothing special), and I spent way too much time staring at his sink... with 2 basins! One to wash, one to rinse... the creme de la creme of doing the dishes. In talking to him, he also mentioned he has a western style bathroom (with a tub and a shower) and then he asked about mine. I sent him a pic of my shower stall bathroom with the shower head attached to the sink. He laughed a lot, and I realized that bathrooms don't get me the way kitchens do. I mean, it's not the bathroom Jess and I had in Ohio, so I'm good. The toilet doesn't rock when I sit on it, there isn't nasty carpet, and I don't have to fill the toilet tank with the shower head. That bathroom / apt really set the bar low for the rest of my life. It really takes shockingly little to make me happy. So yay for making a new friend and yay for the possibility of making cookies!! Oh, also he has as eclectic music tastes as I do.
Looks like there is going to be some changes at work again. Gotta love it, right?! I'm trying to learn to roll with the punches... perhaps that is what Korea is supposed to be teaching me. Anyway, we have one month of the current schedule left and then we start over with new classes. I really kind of want to keep my saplings who I've had for a year... they are so fun. Oh, and figuring out the taxes should be an interesting adventure. Apparently S Korea has people file their taxes in FEBRUARY! Suddenly the US and filing by April 14 sounds great. Of course, it's not Australia and their OCTOBER deadline. I'm learning a lot about what countries are good for taxes and which are not so much. Its quite the educational experience, living abroad.
Anyway, I've learned that going thru my history with guys... with a guy... is weird. Like, how much detail do you think they REALLY want? No, I've never had a relationship that lasted a year. Yes, I've generally dated guys that I knew were no good. I'm not sure what I'm looking for now, except friendship, shenanigans, and malarkey (and respect, but more on that later). Yes, I stopped dating for 8 years (after someone played with my head/emotions), no I don't hate men, yes I'm 35 and single never married with no kids, no I'm not psycho, yes I've been working through a lot of my issues, yes dating has given me new insights on why I am the way that I am, no I'm not expecting you to 'fix' or 'save' me, and the haircut was to celebrate a weight loss goal. The question that usually comes up is 'what are you looking for' and my 100% honest answer is - respect. I want to believe that there are guys out there who respect women/me/my decisions regarding my life. Guys that won't push for sex when I tell them point blank that it's not happening. Guys that don't preach to me about the wonders of the gym when I tell them that my affair with that ended a long time ago. Guys that hear that I fast and don't try to tell me how terrible it is for me. The thing is, I can't demand respect from someone. I want to believe that decent humans still exist, and in order to find that out, I have to meet them. I will still need my BH weekends sometimes, but I also can't just stay home all the time and/or depend on one or 2 people to drag me out. So I'll go meet new humans... and we'll see what happens. Life is fun. LOL.
As for all the virus stuff, there's a lot of people wearing masks. I'm gonna believe that booze kills the virus, so I'm gonna be ok.
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